Flutters in my tummy

I have been start to feel my baby more and more lately. For the last month or so I noticed the fluttering that everyone always talks about. I wouldn't know how else to describe it! Its like butterflies fluttering in your tummy. Feels pretty cool but I can see how some women think its gas! haha

I guess since baby is getting bigger by the minute, I can feel baby a lot more now. I can usually feel where baby is and sometimes I notice a hard area on my tummy that baby is pressing up against. I still haven't felt the baby "kick" so to speak, although I know baby is in there! Jay puts his hands on my tummy to see if he can feel anything, but the OB says you wont really feel anything from the outside until 22 weeks or so.

I am always saying things like "oh baby is moving around" or "I feel the baby" or " Ohhhh baby doesn't like that" (if I move or bend a certain way) I think he is getting a little frustrated that I am having all the fun and he just has to hear me talk about it. I cant wait until he can finally feel the baby too!

Monthly Checkup

Jay and I went to our monthly checkup. They did the routine stuff - blood pressure, urine check, weight check, and to hear the heartbeat. The doctor said that my uterus is right where it should be (while pushing on my belly - how they know that I will never know!) and that baby is growing perfectly. We heard the heartbeat - a whooping 159bmp...old wives tale says its a girl.

But here is my breakdown:

Fast Heartbeat - Girl
Linea Nigra is only from belly button down - Girl
Chinese Calendar predicts - Girl
No Morning sickness - Boy
Snuck a peek at u/s at 12 weeks - Looks like a Girl
I am carrying high - Girl
Craving Sweet - Girl
Hubs growing along with Mom (he is totally getting a belly himself!) - Girl
I have acne - Girl
All Belly (at least thats what ppl are telling me) - Boy

I totally feel like its a girl!!! :) We find out on September 9th!!! Cant wait.

Trip to the OB

When I called the OB and described my symptoms she says.."ummm yeah I think you should come in!" Sounding very alarming I quickly left work and hurried over to see the doctor. 2 HOURS LATER and I got some prescriptions to take, as well as hearing the heartbeat and checking to make sure everything else is okay - which it was.

It was cute too, when the doc was checking for the heartbeat she has her hand on my tummy - she said she felt the baby kick! She must really know what to feel for because Jay and I have yet to feel it from the outside. As for the inside I have been feeling the "quickening and butterflies" for a while now. Sometimes, I can really feel baby moving all over the place! We are going to have one active baby!!!

Some Bumps in the Road

I had an easy pregnancy at first, but now in my second trimester when things are suppose to get easier, I have it a little harder. A few weeks ago I have been experiencing some tailbone pain. Doc says that there is nothing I can do about it, just deal with the pain. It just stinks that I have a desk job and sit on my bum for 8 hours a day! I borrowed that doughnut thing from my sister in law when she had a baby and it helps a lot!

Yesterday I think I had what they call is Round Ligament Pain. It was a sharp then a dull ache in my lower left side of my abdomen. At first I got scared and thought it was something worse, but when I looked it up online and in my books it reassured me that it was RLP. It is completely normal - its the stretching of your uterus to accomodate the growing baby. Its just one of those things that again you just have to deal with the pain. :)

Then this morning I woke up and went to the bathroom. After I urinated I had some mild cramping. I couldnt even stand up right away. After a minute I was fine but it is still something alarming to me. I called my doc but they aren't open until 10am so I am going to call back then. It could be a bladder infection or just from holding in a lot of pee for too long (which I think I did last night)....so who knows!

I am not complaining in the least, its just that all these things make me worry!!!

Our Little One

Some good news…and some not so good news

Well I got the call. The call that I have been waiting for. It was my blood test results for the down syndrome/tristomy. The lady that called didn't seem to enthusiastic which worried me right from the start. But she did tell me some good news. We are at a very low risk of both Down Syndrome and Tristomy. Whew!

But then she went on to say that I have a low papp-a. This is the protein in the baby's placenta. My number was 1. I think the normal range is 4-5. When I googled it (yeah I know, I shouldn't) most ladies with a risky low papp-a were at a .5 and below. So I am thankful that it could be worse. I asked her if there was anything I can do or did and she said no. I asked her if I needed to eat more protein, hahaha, it obviously doesn't work like that. She said that there was nothing I could do. The only thing that I need to do is get an ultrasound every month to ensure that the baby is growing properly. The last ultrasound (which was less than a week ago) the baby was right on schedule. I just pray to God that this baby keeps growing. I kinda stinks feeling so helpless! I wish I could do something about this!!!

But like I said it could be worse - and I am so thankful for all the good news that I did receive.

So Far So Good

I had my screening test today. The lady was super nice and told us that everything looked really good. I just have to wait for the blood tests to come back which will be in a week or so.

I also cheated...I looked at u/s pictures of boys and girls before we went. This way I knew what to look for And I think I just may be having a girl...I saw the hamburger! :) hahaha Jay still wants it to be a boy, but something has told me all along that it is a girl - and now I am even more certain! But I am still going to wait till 20 weeks to be sure - no buying baby clothes just yet!

Tomorrow

I am a little nervous. I go to the doctors tomorrow for my screening test. I did the bloodwork last week, and go for the u/s tomorrow. I wonder how long it will take to get the results. Then Thursday will put baby at the 13 week mark. I cant wait to finally get out of the first trimester - its so nerve-wracking!! Hopefully after this week I can relax a little more.

Major Wardrobe Malfunction

Oh boy! I know that I am starting to show but I didn't think I was going to have to go shopping already?!?! I tried to put on 8 different pairs of pants today and not a one could I pull up over my thighs/butt! I couldn't believe it. I don't really need shirts yet - I am kinda pulling them off with the Bella band or a cammy underneath for length, but the pants totally don't fit anymore.

I have a few pants, but its shorts, skirts, and Capri's that I am having an issue with. I think that I gained some weight from last summer to now (all the times that I swore I was preggo when I wasn't) I bet I was eating a bit too much! LOL

So now I am paying the price by not fitting into any of my summer work clothes! I think I am going to go out and buy some cute summer dresses. This way I can wear them now to hold me off until September and I will still be able to wear them when I am not preggo anymore. Its just a matter of finding those cute summer dresses! I think I am going to try and do some shopping this weekend! Jay wont be happy about that! :)

Finally

I went to the OB again today. I finally got to see my baby, this past month just dragged on way to long! Baby looked so precious and was moving all around, jumping and showing me the legs, feet and hands! Its was really amazing to see my baby actual look like a baby! :)

I thought I was going for my NT test and blood work but I didn't realize that they don't do any of that there. I have to go to another doctor that specializes in Maternal Fetal Medicine - so I had to make a quick appointment to get it done within the next week. Luckily the doctor I called had an appointment open next Wed. So that was good.

The bad part was that my OB recommend an amino. I have still yet to talk to Jay about that. I don't think we are going to do it unless our numbers from the screening test don't come back so good. Lets hope for 1 in a million! LOL The whole amino scares me...imagine if you find out that your baby was fine, but you ended up miscarrying because of the test. I don't know if I would ever forgive myself.

I got a picture, but its not that good so I am going to wait until next week in hopes that we get a better picture.

Nightmare

I knew that a dream/nightmare like this would eventually happen, but I didn't know that it would happen to this severity. It was the most realistic dream I have EVER had - and I remember my dreams every night (I always have). So here was the dream I had last night: (might be a little graphic)

First flash was me in the bathroom, I was upset but I didn't know why yet. I looked down at the toilet seat and there was blood all over the seat, in the toilet and on the floor. I then looked at my hands and there was blood on them too. It took me a second but I realized that I was having a miscarriage - and it was bad. When I looked around me there were strangers staring at me. They looked at me like I was a freak. I told them that I was loosing my baby. They simply said that its no big deal and you will get pregnant again. I then screamed at them about how long it took me to get to this point and what I had to do to actually get pregnant!!!! They still looked at me like I was crazy. I ran in to the next room and found my mother and father. I flew into my mothers arms and started hysterically crying.

(real life now) I realized that I was now coming to - slowing waking up. I could hear myself whining and I could feel my eyes starting to swell. The next thing I knew I was sitting up in my bed hysterical crying - and didn't know why. I obviously woke up my husband. He asked what was wrong and all I could do was cry. He made me lay back down beside him while he rubbed my belly and told me everything was going to be okay.

Weird thing is that I never told him what my dream entailed. Its almost like he knew what had happened - what my dream was about. This happened last night and I have yet to talk to him. Maybe I said something in my sleep?? Even if he didn't know a thing, he was still the sweetest man in the world about it. He comforted me and made me feel so much better.

It was the weirdest thing to have such an emotional, vivid dream that it not only wakes you up in the middle of the night but causes you to hysterically cry too!

I am okay now though, no bad thoughts! :)

My mind is playing tricks on me

I have this overwhelming feeling like I miscarried. I know it could be all in my head so I am hoping that you girls can talk some sense into me. I am about 9 and a half weeks. The last time I saw bambino and heard the heartbeat was at 8 weeks. Being that I got to see the baby once a week it was a definite guarantee that he/she was still alive and growing.

I not going to the OB until another 3 weeks! And I am wondering if this is the reason for my concern. I know that this is common, especially in the early stages, but I just cant seem to shake the feeling. All of the pregnancy symptoms that I had are now gone. Of course I read about a missed miscarriage and one way to notice that you had one is for your preggo symptoms to disappear. I know I didn't really have many symptoms to go by but I just can't seem to stop worrying.

The only thing I still hold onto is the fact that I am still getting a very, very mild cramping everyday. I have had it since I first found out and still to this day. It is the only thing that keeps me going that there is still something going on in there.

How are you suppose to enjoy your pregnancy if you are constantly worrying the worst is going to happen!

I’m Sick

Yuck. I have a sore throat!! Its all scratchy and is making me cough a lot...which doesnt help the gagging. fun, fun :) It just goes to show you that no matter how healthy you are, taking your vitamins and eating healthy...you are still going to get sick. I just hope my body can fight off the infection quickly and I can get back to enjoying my pregnancy! Because right now I just want to rip my throat out!!! I need to go home and sleeeeeep.

I have been released…

I have been released from my RE's care, I now move on to the OB/GYN. It is a great feeling, but I know that I am still not out of the woods yet..........

How Embarrassing!

I was in the ladies room at my work coughing and heaving (I'm lucky that I am not throwing up, but its still early) and the HR lady whose office sits across from the bathroom came into the bathroom to ask if I was okay!! Crap - I didnt know I was that loud! If I keep this up everyone at my work will know that I am KU! I had to make up this lame excuse that I was having a coughing fit! I always feel like I should run to the bathroom, because the off chance that I do throw up I dont have my entire department witnessing it!!

Ultrasound #2

We heard the heartbeat!!! It was the sweetest sound I have ever heard - and I totally teared up. The RE said that everything looks great and Bambino's heartbeat is at 114bpm's!! I didn't get to see the flicker - but the hubs said he saw it. :) The image of the ultrasound didn't come out to well, but I thought it was cool to see the sound waves of Bambino's heartbeat!

Emotional Rollercoaster

So far I have been on one hellofa ride! One minute I am happy, then next I am crying, and the next I am depressed! I cant seem to get a grip on my emotions! Its crazy!

About a week before I would get my period I would be like this...but for only a day or 2, so it was easier to handle. I dont mind my crazy emotions so much, but I am sure that my husband wishes it were over! LOL - poor guy!

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

GAG

Well I cant say that I have thrown up at all...but I can say that I cant stop gagging! I get a little nauseous, run to the toilet and GAG. I almost want to throw up because then maybe the nasty nausea will go away. It started a few days ago...and I have about 6 more weeks to go! :)

I dont care though...I am just happy that I am starting to 'feel' preggo!

Ultrasound #1

Saturday was the big day. I must admit I was nervous!!! We have one lil bean and he/she is so precious, I fell in love at first sight! :) RE says that everything looks great. I am 5 weeks along - and I go back next Saturday for a heartbeat. Beta #3 was a whopping 4,377!!

Bambino is kinda hard to see but he/she is that little white spec in the black gestational sac. So Tiny!!! My EDD is January 28, 2010

Changing Meds

It happened again. I got hives again last night around the same time. I would say a little bit worse and even on my arm a little bit, not just the legs. I called the nurse and ordered the new progesterone. This one is in olive oil instead of sesame oil....so fingers crossed that I dont break out in hives anymore!! I am hoping soon I wont have to take those pesky shots anymore anyways!