My mind is playing tricks on me

I have this overwhelming feeling like I miscarried. I know it could be all in my head so I am hoping that you girls can talk some sense into me. I am about 9 and a half weeks. The last time I saw bambino and heard the heartbeat was at 8 weeks. Being that I got to see the baby once a week it was a definite guarantee that he/she was still alive and growing.

I not going to the OB until another 3 weeks! And I am wondering if this is the reason for my concern. I know that this is common, especially in the early stages, but I just cant seem to shake the feeling. All of the pregnancy symptoms that I had are now gone. Of course I read about a missed miscarriage and one way to notice that you had one is for your preggo symptoms to disappear. I know I didn't really have many symptoms to go by but I just can't seem to stop worrying.

The only thing I still hold onto is the fact that I am still getting a very, very mild cramping everyday. I have had it since I first found out and still to this day. It is the only thing that keeps me going that there is still something going on in there.

How are you suppose to enjoy your pregnancy if you are constantly worrying the worst is going to happen!

I’m Sick

Yuck. I have a sore throat!! Its all scratchy and is making me cough a lot...which doesnt help the gagging. fun, fun :) It just goes to show you that no matter how healthy you are, taking your vitamins and eating healthy...you are still going to get sick. I just hope my body can fight off the infection quickly and I can get back to enjoying my pregnancy! Because right now I just want to rip my throat out!!! I need to go home and sleeeeeep.

I have been released…

I have been released from my RE's care, I now move on to the OB/GYN. It is a great feeling, but I know that I am still not out of the woods yet..........

How Embarrassing!

I was in the ladies room at my work coughing and heaving (I'm lucky that I am not throwing up, but its still early) and the HR lady whose office sits across from the bathroom came into the bathroom to ask if I was okay!! Crap - I didnt know I was that loud! If I keep this up everyone at my work will know that I am KU! I had to make up this lame excuse that I was having a coughing fit! I always feel like I should run to the bathroom, because the off chance that I do throw up I dont have my entire department witnessing it!!

Ultrasound #2

We heard the heartbeat!!! It was the sweetest sound I have ever heard - and I totally teared up. The RE said that everything looks great and Bambino's heartbeat is at 114bpm's!! I didn't get to see the flicker - but the hubs said he saw it. :) The image of the ultrasound didn't come out to well, but I thought it was cool to see the sound waves of Bambino's heartbeat!

Emotional Rollercoaster

So far I have been on one hellofa ride! One minute I am happy, then next I am crying, and the next I am depressed! I cant seem to get a grip on my emotions! Its crazy!

About a week before I would get my period I would be like this...but for only a day or 2, so it was easier to handle. I dont mind my crazy emotions so much, but I am sure that my husband wishes it were over! LOL - poor guy!

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

GAG

Well I cant say that I have thrown up at all...but I can say that I cant stop gagging! I get a little nauseous, run to the toilet and GAG. I almost want to throw up because then maybe the nasty nausea will go away. It started a few days ago...and I have about 6 more weeks to go! :)

I dont care though...I am just happy that I am starting to 'feel' preggo!